Oh city life....

I am not a city girl. I am slowly figuring this out when I get frustrated with people in parking lots who don't look before they back out of their parking spot. Or I find myself avoiding major interstates at specific times of day. And I especially don't like those stop light camera's that take pictures of people who run red lights. 

Cities also have their charm. The outdoor mall that was decorated with Christmas decorations right after Halloween and has a Christmas tree made out of road signs.  Oh, and who can forget the abundance of Starbucks in the city. 

I will admit it, I miss Durango. I miss sitting in Durango Joe's. I miss walking down Main Street and running into at least ten people I know from church, school or work.  I miss the time when rush hour traffic was when there was construction on Hwy. 160 and the morning commute was a little backed up. 

The places our lives take us. Some have stop lights and other have road signs. Sometimes my life feels like an interstate. When I get going too fast or just run out of gas, I have to exit and re-fuel.  I have been going 100 mph on my interstate called life. I am looking for my exit ramp where I can regenerate and re-fuel. 

I admire those people....

One of my best friends is one of those people who has been through so much. The punches just keep on coming and she can never get a break.  She is back in that place again. I don't know if her heart can break anymore because it never really had time to heal. 

Suddenly, my paper I am struggling to write and the minor details of my life don't matter so much anymore. 

What she doesn't know is that she is one of the strongest people I have ever met. She has been knocked down so many time, but every time she gets up, dusts herself off and comes up swinging. 

What she doesn't know is that she is strong enough to get through this. The Lord has molded her to be that strong. 

What she doesn't know is that she is such a Christ like example to me. Every storm she hits she see the rainbows. She looks up and lets the Lord's grace and mercy pour down on her. 

What she doesn't know is that I have no words to comfort her. There is nothing that I can say that can get her through this. Ben and Jerry's ice cream or the strongest alcohol can't take care of this one. 

What she doesn't know is that I admire her. I admire those people like her. 

Seasons

There is forecast of snow tonight. Not much, but it marks the transition from the end of fall to the beginning of winter. 

This time in my life also marks a change in seasons. Just recently, I have decided to not return to Sonlight as the program director. Ending six years with them. Sonlight is the place where I grew up. I owe that place, Mary and Winston so much.  At the fall retreat a few weeks ago I said my goodbyes. I felt as if I was leaving family. I have had the honor and blessing of watching these kids grow up into amazing people. They have all left a mark on my heart.

On the drive back to the city I realized that I left so much unsaid. I felt like telling everyone of those kids how amazing they were and how big God is. So, instead I decided to start this blog. I have so much to say and so much to tell people, that I need to get it out of my head on onto this blog.