People come in and out of our lives. Some show up in the most divine circumstances. And unfortunately some leave in the most painful of circumstances. What matters the most though is not how they came into your life or how they left, but that they were in your life.
Whether or not we like to admit it, those who are in our lives have a profound affect on it; both in good and bad ways. Recently, there has been many people showing up in my life, leaving my life and making an encore appearance in it.
Being my logical, analytical self, I try and figure it out. What is it exactly.... What do they want? Why are they there? blah, blah, blah.......
And heaven forbid, I even commit one of the typical female errors....overthinking EVERYTHING!
So I am taking a new approach.....I am trying not to have expectations of people that I am in relationship with. But rather, just enjoying the actual relationship. Cause isn't this what Christ does? Christ doesn't expect us to call every night, hang out every weekend and be perfect. Let's face it......we aren't perfect and we would never fulfill Christ's expectations. That is the beauty of grace and Christ dying on the cross for us broken humans. Christ wants to be in relationship with us. He doesn't want to be at the top of our priority list and the number one thing on our to do list. He wants to be at the center of all of our lists and our entire life.
On a more somber note, too many people have left my life lately. All before it was there time. The most recent, Pavel, was a friend of mine and football player while I was at Northwestern. He was from the Czech Republic and came to Iowa to play football for the Red Raiders. I don't think he played in a single game all year. But he was at every practice and took some hard hits. And yet...knowing that his chances of playing were slim to none....he came back day after day. I feel privileged to have had Pavel in my life for a short time. And in that short time he taught me to do what I love, to do what I am passionate about. There may be days where you take some hard hits and want to quit. But I keep showing up because I love what I do.
Rest in Peace Pavel! May you rest in the presence of the Lord...and even throw a football around with the big guy too.
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