:: People Suck::

I am over people. I am over selfish people. I am over disrespectful people. I am over people who lie. I am over people who say one thing and do the other.

There is a decreasing number of people in our world who are genuinely honest and kind. As much as this pains me to say, since it is my nature to always believe the best about people until they prove me wrong. Some have proved me wrong numerous times, and I still decide to believe that they really are the person that I have in my head.

This world has become a place where people are concerned about one thing; themselves and money. But let's be honest, if you aren't looking out for number one, then you are going to be taken advantage of. If you are a hard worker, than your commitment will be taken advantage of. If you are a person who is passionate about their line of work, then you are automatically labeled a work-aholic.

And we have all heard the good ole' saying....nice guys finish last.....well I have two thoughts.

Unfortunately this is true. Regardless of where you go or your situation in your life, the nice people are almost always beat out by the people who are only concerned with themselves, and are willing to step on people to reach their goal.

Thought 2.....maybe this saying needs to be changed to...nice girls always finish last. What about us normal girls who are confident, normal, legit and have so much to offer? What about the girls who have some substance. Who have opinions and goals and dreams. Instead, we are passed by for the girl that simply wants to be part of a relationship. We are forever those girls who are "great friends!"

I like to think that I am a nice girl. I like to think that everything I have gotten out of this life, I have earned. My life has never been my own. I have never been the person that looks out for me. My heart is to serve. I sacrifice my agenda for the sake of others. I like to hope that people are truly good. I am coming to find out, that it isn't enough.

Is there a difference between being selfish and being an advocate for yourself?

I am that person described above to a fault. And trying to survive in a society and in several situations where politics rule, qualifications mean crap and a person's soul is simply seen as a weakness is exhausting. It sucks the life out of me. It makes me doubt the things I want. It causes me to question if fighting for something is worth it.